Ya...pretty much awesome, I love Anthony. :D I think making a stamping community would be fun; I wanna make a Spring Awakening community...hopefully I'd get some people in on it, though, 'cus a stamping community's no fun with no one

I'm watching Spongebob right now...I've seemed to be doing that a lot latley. :P And it's odd, but, I think one of my characters is like Spongebob a bit right now; not like anyone cares...I just find that interesting. Anyway; I've been thinking a lot latley about some of my RPG online friends...all of them seem to have money problems of some sort. I listen to them talk about they have to work for endless hours at school to get the best grades if they even want a change into college since the only way would be for them to get a scholorship or how they have to work at some crappy job they hate so they'll have money for college. And I kinda think...all my life I've been basically handed things; for the love of God, I'm sitting in my room watching TV on my own TV with Satellite! And I feel bad; I've been taken for granted everything that's been handed out to me. I mean, so I live to far away from New York to go right after college? Big deal...why do I spend my time groping and feeling miserable about it? It's like...I can still write musicals somewhere else...I'mma probably not even gonna write that many...Love Basically Sucks will probably be my only one....I really wanna write books and I know I can do that. I have the means to do that...that's the thing; I dun know...I've just been feeling fairly selfish latlely; it's like...why do I spend my time moping and complaing about not having this or that and not being able to do this or whatever? I'm gonna be able to go to NYC this summer and see Spring Awakening and see I'm going again in the winter too; I mean, I'm so lucky to be able to do all this. I've never really thought about it, but I really am...I just, I don't know what point I'm trying to get at but not taking things for granted; I guess that's all I'm really trying to say. 

I've also been thinking about something else latley...I think I'm supposed to do great things in the future. I mean...who would've thought; a person like me...sheltered and Christian...would be here right now? I think I was meant to fall in love with Rent then look for an RPG for it. I think I was meant to meet Jas who has taught me more about life than I had ever known...she got me out my ignorant shell...got me to stop living in my own little world and just...care about things going on in the real world. God, I love her. I mean, why couldn't I have just stayed in my own little ignorant world only really caring about what I was going to eat and what was on TV? [No, really...at one point that was my main concern, hehe.] I didn't really give a crap about the poor or Global Warming [Which I knew nothing about actually in my defense :P] and now I do. It's just...there are a million Rent RPGs out there...why did I happen to come across the one that Jas was on? I mean; I have all these thoughts I would've never had a few years ago; I just...I know one day I'll be brave and actually...do things. I can write books about what I truly belive in and one day change people. See, I know what's it's like to just be jerky and...not care about the world; I know what it's like to live in a closed-minded Christian setting. That's the real reason I think all I know now is odd. But;  because I know how both sides think in a sense I think I can change people; I think I can convince people to turn the other way; I truly belive I can. I can't possibly explain the thrill of what I feel; the joy; the dermination of just knowing I have a point in this life...really you watch me, just watch me...and one day all will know; for serious.

In other news, my mommy has arthrities. :( I feel bad for her 'cus she can't go on the treadmill or walk up the stairs without her legs hurting like hell. And my History teacher is making us do notecards on what decade we're doing in class and tell the class what we learned...we all have different topics each decade. I have Brown Vs. Board Of Eduaction In Topeka [Toe-Peka! Pick my toe! It's hot! Hehe, ok, lame Foster's moment over]...I have to tell the whole class about it using my notes and such. I perfered when we had a hell a lot of notes...seriously. :/

Current Mood: contemplative

Stolen from nummy_cream_puff, Name a character and I'll tell you three (or more) facts about them from my own personal pseudo-canon.

AND/OR, fill this out :

1. Do you have a tattoo?
2. How old are you?
3. Are you single or taken?
4. What does having a friend mean to you?
5. Do you dream in color?
6. Ever seen a corpse?
7. Give a me a song that you like?
8. How did we meet?
9. What's your philosophy on life and death?
10. If you could do anything with me, and have no one know, what would it be?
11. Do you trust the police?
12. Do you like musicals? .
13. What is your fondest memory of me?
14. If you could change anything about yourself what would it be?
15. Would you cheat?
16. What are you wearing?
17. Have you ever skinny dipped?
18. Would you hide evidence for me if I asked you to?
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
20. Which do you prefer - short or long hair?
21. What's your favorite day of the week?
22. What's your favorite color?
23. If you could bring back anyone that has passed, who would it be?
24. Tell me one interesting/odd fact about you?
25. What was your first impression of me?
26. Have you ever done drugs?
27. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

AND/OR :

Give me any fandom you know I know of and I'll tell you:

1. The first character I first fell in love with
2. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now
3. The character everyone else loves that I don't
4. The character I love that everyone else hates
5. The character I used to love but don't any longer
6. The character I would shag anytime
7. The character I'd want to be like
8. The character I'd slap
9. A pairing that I love
10. A pairing that I despise
 
Name three fics you think I will never, ever, ever write. In return, I will attempt to write a snippet of one of them.

[My fandoms: Rent, Spring Awakening, WIcked, Spongebob, Camp Lazlo, Degrassi, Foster's Home For Imaginary Friends]

Hehe, it's weird...latley I've been feeling as if I'mma cheating on Rent when I listen to Spring Awakening. It's very odd...it's like; Rent changed me...made me a non-homophobe and I knew no other musical would make me feel like that and change me so much. Then, Spring Awakening comes along...teaching me that sex isn't gross and all this other good stuff....and it changed my mind about things just like Rent. I really like 'em equally, I just seem to listen to my SA soundtrack more than my Rent soundtrack latley. It's like my friend....she loved A/C and it was her otp, then, she discovered the joys of Ed/Cha-Cha and now she seems to pay more attention to Ed/Cha-Cha than A/C [Though, It DOES help that we have no Collins on the RPG site we're on....we used to have a really great Collins, but she's a student teacher now so has no more time to post] as my friend said, "It's like A/C is my wife and Ed/Cha-Cha is my mistress..." :P That's how it's begging to feel with SA and Rent: Rent is my wife and SA Is my mistress. :P

I wish I knew what to write and my and nummy_cream_puff's RPG...but, I dun and I should post on it...but, I have no inspiration and it sucks. :/ Also, I need to work on my History project some today...it's due on the 9th and I started working on it yesterday, hehe. :P It's not so hard though, all I have to do is make some notecards about the Numemburg Trails then talk about the things I wrote in class. I'mma just nervous 'cus it has to be oral. :/

Also, I still dun know what I want for my 18th B-Day...like, I really just want really dumb little stuff like some DVDs, maybe some Sims expansion packs if they make more...but my grandparents want to get me something big and I have no clue. :P I'mma weird...I'd rather get DVDs and PC games than something big. :P

Current Mood: content

So, if anyone's interested, I updated Cathy's journal:

http://unreal-bliss.livejournal.com/

 

So, ya, I feel like using this format again, sue me. :P

1. So, I saw a video on the Holocaust and toke some notes today on it, and I was thinking; my teacher says it starts with sterotypes, then jokes, slurs, dehumanatiaztion, discrimination, violence and extreme violence. And I was thinking....how much longer untill we ourself have our own little version of this with our 'enemies' in the Middle East? How much longer untill every Middle Eastern immigrant is prejudice to the point of violence? We already have our own little sterotypes, jokes, slurs about them...how much longer until they're dehumanized, no longer allowed in schools, shops, no longer allowed to own buissnesses or anything? I don't know if it would lead to concentration camps, for God's sake, let's HOPE we dun get some President who thinks anyone un-American is inferior. But, this is something to think about...why must we prejudize these people? Was it them that started this war? Are these Middle Eastern people here in the States the one who bombed us? Why should we blame them for something they can't control? Are all Middle Easterners terroists? Let me ask another question; are all Germans Naziis? The answer is of course, no. I think, blaming all Middle Easteners for 9/11 is just like Nazi party blaming all Jews for their problems...it's so strickinly simmilar...we all want a scapegoat for out problems...and wasn't America orginally supposed to be a haven for immigrants, no matter where from? Where all are accepted, regardless of race, age, gender, etc...?

2. Another thing learned today in History: only 5% of the people in Germany were actually the ones victimizing all those people; 10% of the people in Germany tried to stand up and say something and about 80% were bystanders. That's just...totally surprising to me...how many just sat there; I suppose just a few people stepping in can so something; I always thought being a bystander wasn't that bad...I mean, you can't be considered wrong if ya didn't do anything can you? And don't we all think that in a sense. Think of an outcast who everyone teases...the ones who don't tease him but don't talk to him ethier can proudly say, "I don't tease him...I'm not mean to him at all." I suppose that is not, but it's not changing anything, it's not doing anything....it's almost like you're invisible thourgh the whole thing. If the 80% of bystanding Germans had did something, what would have happened? No Holocaust? Well, that can't be said for sure, but, things might of gone a lot better.

3. I'm now excited for my American/Muslim couple novel...though I dun know if I want the American to be a girl and the Muslim to be a guy or vice versa? I'mma really not sure which will work better :/

4. My Internet hates RPG sites today. :( That just makes me sad

5. Is it sad that for research for my novel, instead of going to sources like the online encyclpedia, I'mma looking for LJs of Muslim people? Hehe :P LJ Is becoming my Google...seriously...and I dun know wheter to be glad or not. :P

6. A maybe pool party for my friend whose moving? Maybe...I'mma excited and nervous for the same reasons and that is I haven't thowrn a party in a while 'cus I've had no one to invite. So, ya....it worries me to death that I'll screw it all up, but, I'mma excited 'cus It might be fun...I can't explain it really...it's kinda confusing feeling. :/

7. Ummm...I got NO teasing in Middle School apparantly according to a girl in my High School who went to MIddle School with me. Ok, so, water wasn't thowrn on my with someone saying, "the power of Christ compells you..." So someone didn't chase me with a pencil using that as a stake. Everyone still hated me, teased me...thought I was dumb and it still hurt. Ugh, I'mma just a bit offended she would act like I'm being overlydramatic when SHE WAS THERE! IN MY CLASSES! Ugh, it just annoyes the hell out of me...she annoyes the hell out of me, but I'll still talk to her...why? I don't know, I have no earthly clue when most of the time I want her to just go away....maybe because in Middle School she was really the only person I could talk to? :/ I really dun know

8. Internet RPGs are working now! YAY! [Hehe, I just wanted an even number :P]

Ya, Spring  Awakening...in Spanish, apparantly...this is the beating scene; which I dun know seems really random. They just seem to be talking normally when Wendla asks to be beaten...but, what do I know, I have no clue what they're saying, so, ya. :P And they had the scene before this on another vid and it was the very first scene where Wendla asks her mom where babies come from...so, ya...the beating scene seemed to come out of nowhere, hehe. :P I just find this interesting, I dun know why. And I dun think the Melchi's that hot, but, I'mma spoiled by Groff, so, ya :P I can't really understand it...which is sad because I've taken Spanish since kindergarden, but...ya :P Hehe

Here's my parody of Then There Were None...still with the same title...I couldn't think of any other cleavor thing to say, so in the parody, "Then There Were None" is still said just like the orgianal. I am worried that the letter part doesn't have the same rhyme sceme as the orginal; kinda went a bit crazy with that part I think. :/ Ah well, enjoy. :D

Then There Were None

England Friend: My dear American friend,

I spent the whole day thinking about your letter,

It touches me-it does-that you would think of England as a place of safety.

I’m really saddened to hear the war did not end as soon as you hoped, and that you will be drafted next fall.

And yet, I do not think that running to England would solve anything,

And even if it could, I can not give you the money you request.

American: *Snort of disgust* Ya, right, ya right….So I’m running away,

Glad you agree with all the others,

That I’m just a coward,

Just deal with your own problems-Heard that before

England Friend: Please to do not take my refusal to show any lack of affection for you or your problem,

On the contrary, as your best friend, I feel as if it’s my duty to help you during these troubling times

American: You know what the sucks the most right now for me?

One thousands bucks and I’m draft free,

And I mean, please…you have the money,

Get real, hun!

Stop with the excuses.

England Friend: If you like, I can help you write the President,

Maybe we can try to convince him that you simply can not fight in a war you don’t believe in,

Also, that forcing people to fight in a war no one seems to believe in can’t possibly turn into good…

American: You wanna laugh, has she lost it?

Write the President, is she for real?

He’ll never listen to me,

Right, tell me more…

England Friend: Still, my friend, one thing in your letter disturbed me,

Your, what should I call it?-well, the obvious threat that should you have to go to war, you’ll take your own life?

American: Ha, so it comes down to this?

Act as if you care, no way!

So, write the President, I don’t mind,

If that’s how it goes…

England Friend: My dear friend, the world is filled with people,

drafted people, who did not even want to go to war, but were forced into it like you, but have gone on with their lives.

Consider for example the Vietnam War…

American: He’ll freak, he’ll say

“You’re unpatriotic,”

Your mind feels angry and betrayed,

And will it quit? It will until the war stops,

It doesn’t fell like home, not anymore

Not this place that started a war

All because of stupid assumptions and oil.

So, now, what do I do?

England Friend: In any case, I assure you, your feelings on this draft will have no affect on my feelings for you,

Or make me think of you as unpatriotic…

American: Ya right, ya right…..Well fine,

why did I even waste my time

On people who don’t even understand?

“You should solve your own problems-” heard that before.

You start to cave, you start to cry,

There’s nowhere to run, you can’t just hide,

You start to crumble up in helplessness.

England Friend: So, don’t worry, my friend,

And I hope to hear from you soon,

In the meantime, I am always, and most fondly,

Your England Friend

American: Just fuck it-and you! Ok, that’s it!

I refuse to spend another bit,

Worried about my days of upcoming shit!

And then there were none,

And then there none,

And, then there were none…

And, then there were none…

And, then there were none…

Yes, I'mma offically a nerd with no life...last night I went thourgh about 508 pages of a thread on the offical Spring Awakening forum looking for the parodized script of Spring Awakening thier doing called Guilty Awakeing. :P Hehe, I felt like I had just wasted like...three hours when I should've been writting. :P I think the people at sa_slash would like it...it takes forever to find the actuall song lyrics and even more to find the parodized scenes [Ya, they go off-topic a lot on that thread...at times it kinda feels like a chat room], but it's still funny. :P Hehe, I did submit a post to my RP afterwods, wich made me feel like I haven't wasted 3 hours... but ya...I didn't really acomplish much yesterday. :P It didn't help that almost everyone on the RPG site I go on weren't there, tempting me more to be lazy. :P

Also, I got a new book idea actually from listing to the Word Of Your Body. You see, I plan to parodize the lyrics to the SA songs so they focus on the issuses of today. [For example, I'mma gonna make a parody of Then There Were None, about a young boy writting to his friend in England asking to send money for him to come because he doesn't want to be drafted, but his friend refuses.] I'mma tempted to do what the people on the forum did with Guilty Awakeing...after I do the parodized lyrics, write a parody script. :P So, ya...I was listing to Word Of Your Body and wondered how I was gonna parodize that...then I started thinking of forbidden love that could happen today. Suddenly; my mind cooked up a random scene....a Muslim man and an American woman singing the song...and then, a novel iea unfolded. I'mma excited, actually, I do get pretty annoyed with all the steryotypes on Muslim people and also I just love forbidden love...I dun know why, I just love reading it and writting it. :P 

Ya, and I should write some today...I feel as if I've just been totally lazy during Spring Break and it just makes me feel bad. :/ I'll try to write some fanfics I really need to write today [There's a Rent fic I have that hasn't been updated in like...months. :/] and do some parodized lyrics and DEFENTLY finally write the first post to Cathy's journal...it feels like I'mma spamming the site if I just let it sit there. :/

Alright, so, I have a Grallagher fic idea I wanna run by you guys...not posting it no sa_slash, 'cus I'mma not sure if it belongs, so, ya know, better safe than sorry, right? At least nummy_cream_puff will see it and give me her comments. It's really angsty...basically, I was reading about how Johnny left Old Spring Pikes and no one really knows why...and I got Goodbye Love and Without You in my head and it made me really depressed. :(

Basically, ya, things have been happing in Johnny's life that he just can't take or control so he decides to start over somewhere where no one would know how he is [I dun know where that would be...need help in that area :P] and gets a low-wage job working at a fast food resturant.

Edit: I got a different idea...the fic will take place after he comes back, 'cus he misses NYC and everything, so ya....I think that'd work better